Friday, October 26, 2007

Well, I have applied for jobs outside of the home. Even though I am using a walker or wheelchair to get around, I am hoping someone will hire me. I need to get away from all the hassles here at home. I have tried finding jobs to do here at home, but came to no success, all businesses want you to pay to work for them. That is not a job to me, a job is where someone pays you to work for them, not you pay to work for them. So here is hoping an outsider will hire me considering my handicaps.
Keep your fingers crossed that someone will hire me and give me a job.
I will let you know if I get a job or not.


Thursday, October 25, 2007

Well, no change. I walked into the livingroom last night to talk to my husband and both of my kids told me to get out and to shut-up because they were trying to watch a movie. Is this ever going to end? Will my kids ever give me any respect?
I have talked this over with my husband and he has told me to ignore them and I told him it is kinda hard to do when I have them both jumping on me whenever I try to say something. I can't even say anything nice to them and they start yelling at me as if I said something terrible. If I say something bad, I get yelled at too. I am in a no win situation.
Will add more again later.

Take care,

Monday, October 22, 2007

Is My Son Ashamed of His Family?

Today is Monday, Oct. 22, 2007; 2:00pm.
I am starting to think either my oldest son is ashamed of us, or he is lying to us. You be the judge.
He is 19 years old and on Friday and some Saturday evenings, he tells us that he is going over to (I will not give her real name, we will call her Jane) Jane's house. He stays out until 1:00am, which is the time he agreed to be in by. He has been seeing Jane (atleast that is what we think) for about 2 months now. I have asked him several times when will we be able to meet Jane? He always tells me, "I don't know", and he gets mad. I am starting to wonder if this girl exists or is he making her up to go out with his buddies. Why can't he just come out and tell e the truth? Does she exist or not? When I try to confront him about her, he gets mad and walks out of the room and won't talk to me for hours.
Does Jane exist, and he is too ashamed of us for us to meet her, or is he lying to us? You be the judge and tell me what you think.

Sunday, October 21, 2007

Mom Gets No Respect No. 1

Today is Sunday, Oct. 21, 2007, 8:40pm. I am new at this, so please bare with me.
On Oct. 10, my husband had surgery, when he got home he was in severe pain. On Oct. 15 real early in the morning, I had to rush him to the hospital because he had taken a turn for the worse. My youngest son went with us. He is 16, but thinks he is 30. They had given my husband some medicine to stop the pain and it knocked him out. My son started in on me and told me it was my fault that my husband was in so much pain. When I didn't do anything to my husband, the doctor that did the surgery gave him a very mild pain RX to take and really messed him up when they did the surgery. Anyway, the point of my story is, my youngest son started showing his butt there in the Emergency Room and then he flat out call me a B**CH, he told me I was a no good wife and mother. I left the room in tears.
I had a stroke myself back in Feb. of this year and my doctor has told me to try to stay as clam and stress free as possible because I could have another stroke. My youngest son doesn't give me any respect, he cannot talk to me without trying to start a arguments or fight. I have done everything I can to block his ugliness out and the way he talks to me, I leave the room whenever he comes in, except at dinner time. Whenever he sees me, he always has something sarcastic to say. I block him out and I haven't talked to him ever since that episode at the hospital.
Like I said, I get NO respect from him. If he cannot say anything nice to me, then I would rather him not talk to me at all. When he starts up at me, I leave the room in tears. I have tried to be nice to him and all I get back is disrespect from him. So I keep asking myself, Why even bother with him? Why waste your time or breathe?

Will fill in more when something else happens.

Until then, take care and have a great day.